It’s been 4 years since Judah’s accident. No matter how much I try to keep my mind distracted and busy to forget traumatizing anniversaries like these, my body always remembers. It throws me back in time. It puts me in a state of shock- I still can’t believe this happened to my sweet boy. Not my baby😩. I still feel like I can’t breathe. I wore a pair of Birkenstock sandals on this day. Judah wore blue crocs. When he disappeared into the water, I ran in to look for him and in the process, I lost